
I suppose this blog entry marks the end of an era, albeit a short one. Well, here is my long-awaited capstone. The disadvantages of being a double major at a liberal arts college makes life difficult if you wish to study abroad. Having a signficant feeling of regret, I craved to travel before life got too complicated. I told myself to do it now before the bills, the kids, and the wrinkles. While some openly told me they thought this was a cop-out, a time-buyer before I got a real job, I ignored what I eventually realized was a bit of jealously and was proud of the most amazing decision of my 23 year long life.
When I’m older and I look back at my year I know I’ll be proud of what I did.
1) I traveled. In one year, I traveled to 15 cities in China, Thailand, Singapore, Cambodia and Vietnam. I viewed the amazing site of the Terracotta Warriors in Xi’an, ate seafood and drank the country’s number one beer in Qingdao, I scaled the sacred mountain of Tai’Shan and woke up early enough to watch the most b eautiful sunrise I have ever seen, I climbed the Great Wall of China twice and was left absolutely breathless each time, and I saw what the future is like in the fast-paced city of Hong Kong. I rode elephants, slept in hammocks, and partied in Thailand. I sipped on Singapore Slings and felt like I was back in the West in the expensive but wonderful country of Singapore. I climbed the immense and jaw-dropping site of Angkor Wat and visited the worst of humanity at the Killing Fields in Cambodia. And finally, I experienced anti-Americanism and went on a history museum binge in Vietnam.
2) I learned a new language. During the summer before my senior year of college, I met weekly with a family friend to learn how to write cover letters and resumes. When he asked me if I knew any languages, I knew my high school French skills were dwindling, I said that I had regretted not learning another one. And he said to me, “Well, do something about it.” Talk about a kick in the ass, that is exactly what I needed. Now I am no where near fluent but I’m pretty proud of myself. I learned that the best way to learn is to practice with the locals. I may have made a fool out of myself more than once, but it works!
3) Assimilate…assimilate…assimilate…if that means learning to not complain because you have to use a squatter then I succeeded. (well most of the time). Learning to be a part of a completely different culture is challenging but it was so rewarding.
4) I was a teacher and a friend! I’d like to think that all of my students flourished under my tutelage but I am aware that the possibility of this happening to all 800 students was near impossible. I was their doorway to the West and they made traveling down to the SouthCampus each day worth it! I still receive at least two emails a day from my students asking me about the NBA and CSI episodes that they caught online. My knowledge of both subjects is quite weak but knowing that they just want to keep in contact is awesome.
In my final week in Beijing, I experienced the most bizarre set of emotions. Sitting in my room, I sometimes would burst into tears and would then be fine ten minutes later. (You can ask Mike specifically, he would sometimes say, “Oh no, here it comes! Get out!”) If you know me well, I am one who usually has my plans laid out in front of me. (And usually in two separate planners. Wow that is so sad) For the first time, I will be going home without a plan. I suppose I shouldn’t complain because this will probably be my last responsibility-free time of my life. People have asked me why I never went home during the year. I always answer honestly. “I will be home (in America) for the rest of my life. This is my year to take full advantage of China and the enjoy the life I have created for myself here.” It sounds a bit harsh but it is true. Unlike some of my colleagues, I rarely felt homesick. With the help of the amazing Skype program, I was able to talk to and see my family daily and I think that helped me adjust so quickly. I truly believe that I am more open-minded and unbelievably optimistic.
The seven of us have joked all year that our group is called “The Real World China.” Like the MTV show, we were thrown together, as complete strangers into an apartment in a foreigner-less city. Unable to speak the language, unsure as to eating new and wild foods and attempting to assimilate into a new and completely different culture was hard but, we did it!
So as we slowly walked through the terminal at Dulles International Airport, completely aware that the goodbyes were about to begin, I felt like I was going to throw up. First, we said goodbye to Cait, my roommate, who was off to Syracuse. Then Francine, a newcomer for the Olympics, who was off to Warwick, RI. And then there were five. My connecting flight to JFK was delayed an hour and a half but the boys’ flight to Logan Airport was on time. I dug through my backpack and put my Yankee hat on, just in case the waterworks were going to be present (who are we kidding, it was 100% guaranteed they’d be there). And without discussion, we all just knew it was time. Waterworks—BEGIN. I was a disaster. Every single day of my life for the past year has included these guys. They were first my friends and then my family. I think my hesitations were in part due to my nervousness about what life would be like without them. We know we’ll see each other again and our paths will cross in the future. We have experienced something that no one else we know has. We are bonded by the red country…forever.
I have spent an immense amount of time thinking about how I would end this. That is not an exaggeration considering, most of the photos I take, I always ask myself, “Is this photo blog worthy?” It wasn’t until I re-read my entire years worth of blog entries and my trip on the flight from Beijing to Washington D.C. that I figured it all out. As I sat in a window seat of a completely full flight home, a conversation with my two row-mates ensued. A 21-year old Emerson student who had just finished a fascinating journalism internship in Beijing sitting in the middle seat introduced me to the girl sitting in the aisle seat. Having already discussed our life stories, the Emerson student briefly explained my deal, a girl who's spent the year in China, to the young and nervous looking Chinese girl. When he stood up to use the lavatory, Sisi, the 22-year old Chinese student inquired about my year. She asked me if I was going home for holiday or going home for good. I told her that I had been in China for a year and the time had come for my inevitable return home! I then asked her why she was flying to the states. In perfect English, she told me that she was going to the United States for a year to study at Ohio State. This would be her first time to America and in a very emotional tone, she explained her tearful goodbye to her family just an hour beforehand. Her hesitancy, timidness, and very obvious anxiety gave me a surreal sense of dejavu. My own anxiety of returning home suddenly ceased. I smiled at her, leaned across the middle seat and simply said, “You are going to be just fine!”
I just want to thank all of my loyal blog readers for everything. You are all the reason I kept this blog going. Even when I would have rather been lazy by catching myself up on episodes of Lost and The Office, I picked my brain for interesting and hilarious stories to share with you. Thank you for all the email responses, the cards and packages that I received from many of you from 7,000 miles away, and the emotional support! I am so grateful to have such great friends and family. Xie Xie! (Thank you!)
August 28, 2008 --- BEIJING INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT
















